I want to do this story justice, because I think it is a pretty cool one. It involves twists and turns and ups and downs, but mostly it involves the ultimate Storywriter. It’s long, but I think it’s worth the read.
When Matt and I said “I do” we had dreams of what our life together as husband and wife would be like. I went straight to planning how many kids will we have and what will their names be. Matt went straight to thoughts of business school and maximizing our time together as a couple. As you all know well, God had some of those plans in mind as well as others we hadn’t even considered. He saw a diagnosis and treatment of cancer. He saw a move away from where we grew up. He saw travel to foreign lands. He saw ministry and growth opportunities for us both. Our story continues to unfold, which is where I want to pick up with the latest chapter.
About a year and a half ago we said the word “babies,” threw caution to the wind and prayed that the Lord would quickly grow our family. We continued to wait and pray…and wait and pray. It was hard. I have to admit. Sadly, I was prideful. It crossed my mind that I should not have to wait. I already had my trial. I heard the word cancer and it applied to me. But, God in his mercy showed me that this was also part of our story and this too would be good. I’m thankful we know God. We know He is in total control of our lives and knows so much more than we do. He knows about the timing of events. Why some must wait and others don’t. What challenges we need to change us. The fire we need to walk through. The refining we must experience.
It is impossible to write the millions of little lessons I learned during the wait. But they are so sweet to me and I would gladly sit down to coffee with you to share. I wrote about the bigger lessons recently in a blog on trials.
See it here.
All the while God was slowly but surely crafting in my heart a desire to adopt. Matt expressed this desire often, from the first days of our marriage actually, and he patiently waited and prayed for me to join him. This past August I found that same desire. I had worked through the questions that come when thinking about adoption and was confident that we should begin the process. So we did. We filled out the application. Got the first approval needed to continue with our agency of choice. Set up a meeting with the social worker and registered for the orientation. We announced the exciting news to family and we felt overjoyed that the Poladian family would begin to grow and that our story, though different and not what we expected, was perfect.
Not long after, 3 weeks ago to be exact, there were some signs that led me to take a pregnancy test. I took the test and placed it on the counter and told Matt he could look first. We had been here before. But this was so different. Really, I don’t even know how to describe the emotion of that moment. My sweet and loving husband looked at me and said “you’re pregnant.” And then we laughed. Not because we thought it was some practical joke, but because in that moment God poured out his grace upon us. Then today, November 2, 2010, we heard the peanut’s heartbeat. It was amazing. We are thankful. We are blessed.
So will we adopt? I hope that is the question you are asking. We sure hope we will. We will pursue it again when the time comes and know if that is what God wants for us, He will make it happen. We know He can. He showed us.
We hope you will rejoice with us! Praise God for His blessings and His work in our lives. Thank Him for the trial He sent us and the precious, tangible reward we will hold in June.
He is good, so good.
Psalm 118:1 "Oh give thanks to the Lord, for He is good; for his steadfast love endures forever"